its a mirical wahoo im happy lol u know whom u are who mademe smile thanks u mwahhhh lol ight im off to bed just wantd to say thank u! lol

night

bein a hecktick while month actualy

well at end of oct im gone nj will be in my rear view mirror and im goan be heart broken, everyone sayn its gona be good for me start fresh n over. but mabey i dont want to? i love this palce lol it sucks here but its HOME....so confused right now i dont know whats on my mind just realy wish i ahd a job i could buy a house lol....other then that works goin great went to newark sunday for manager traning once i become a manager i get 15-29 a hour wahoo lol lets hope i make it... oscars rockn lately baby is comen around bein nicer.....i duno waht to say just kinda sad n upset n wanna tell somone sorry ... well im goin to lay ill update tomrrow or thursday alot more.

" welcometo NJ "  lol im so geting NJ tattoed on my somewhere the asbarrry park kidna logo but in newjersey . bla sucks im to upset lol were my off switch?

here i am~ the exposion

 btw ppl im comen back lol u aint sein the last of me in oct!!!

" im back at the cross roads agian just onething im not pickn a path im gona stand in the middel and smile and catch it all sicne i want it all "

why dose love have to be so confusing and painfull? honestly isnt it supose to be always there for one another good n bad times easy n hard?shits bein weird and hard with out u here but im tryn to be tryn i sein ur grown up and i was a waste of a good life but damn i miss u to much to be missn someone who cares less about me... was watch a chessey 80s movie and got this out of it today" the ones who realy love u u can leave so easily and finde the reasons to but the ones whom use u and leave u u just want them more n more... im a nice guy and well i realy hate bein that" great quote ....sums alot up i know u blame me for everyhitng i know i aint what u wanted n shit sorry but i do n did love u im tryn to get on like u have so quickly but my days are getin colder n shorter as urs jsut go on for days i cant get ur voice out of my head ur smell outta my noise ur touch off my skin i just cant do it n dont think i wanna but yea.....well as the song goes "i love u dont ever fuckin question that thats why we will prolly never get along if i was better at finding the words to say i wouldnt have to write it all down" goodngiht